I is need to be da bitch

YES! I IS NEED TO BE DA BITCH...

Aetos security. Rocks. I am adamant in believing that I was treated unfairly and unprofessionally by a single Aetos employee(ok maybe two). It cost me about 1 hour. The following is a narrative of yesterday's events(from Mr I-do-not-need-to-listen-to-young-people Aetos Guard's point of view) :

ahhhhhhhhh perfect. its 1pm - lunch time. time to sit around and slack.
oh bummer. someone's here at the counter. no worries, i'll just turn him away since its everyone's lunch hour anyway.

"Erm hi sir. I'm here to apply for my Certificate of Non Criminal Conviction. Where to I have to.."
what the. isn't it lunch? can't this idiot see that i'm totally not interested in attending to him?
"COMEBACK AT 2PM. THE DEPARTMENT IS CLOSED NOW OPENS AT 2."
"Erm. OK thank you sir I'll just be sitting here and wait with my friends until 2."

ok great. slack time... lunch is just slack time for me. i don't understand why we have to stay a the stupid counter when no one.. or rather, HARDLY anyone comes to the counter during this hour anyway. deedeedumm blahblahblahblahblahblah... oh no 1 hour just passed. those idiots are here again.

"Hi we're here to apply for our non criminal recor..."
"YA ITS CALLED A CNCC CERTIFICATEEEEE OFFFFFFF NONNNNNN CRIMINALL CONVICTIONNNNNNN. SEE AN SEE SEE! YOU MUST USE THE RIGHT TERMS!"
"Yea ok we're here to apply for our CNCC. What do..."
"The department closes at 12. Come tomorrow."
(stunned silence)
"Erm okay what about the prints. I hear we have to take a full set of fingerprints. Is it the same depar..."
"I SAIDDDDDDDDDDDD ITS ONLY OPEN FROM 9 to 12 EVERYDAY."
"OK sir. Erm but did you understand my intentions? If there's anything we can complete today..."
"BOY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?????????? I SAIDDDDD ITS CLOSED ALREADY. THE DEPARTMENT IS CLOSE ALREADY? UNDERSTAND? ITS CLOSED ALREADY. ITS ONLY OPEN FROM 9-12 EVERYDAY. CLOSED."
nabehhhhh that little boy look like retarded sia. dun understand what i have to say. what sai fingerprint. closed that means close wad. nabeh waste my last few minutes of lunch break.
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notice i don't get to finish a single sentence?
sry... just had to bitch about this.

My new secret indulgence

GOSSIP GIRL!

Yes its into the 12th episode. Its my new trash indulgence. When i just wanna be that gossipy girl(my initial choice for word was a bit too harsh that starts with s and ends with lut) bitching, backstabbing and just being plain evil. I know I can't do that. My social programming just doesn't allow for that. So my release is gossip girl.

I do see the difference in having that charmed life. Sometimes i draw unfair comparisons and parallels to some in my social circle. It is unfair - life isn't ever fair. Those born with a platinum/golden/silver spoon will never understand the life of the lower social class people. Like how a royal will never truly know the plebeians. Yes, they will see their share of problems, worries etc, but I'm sure it pales in comparison to skipping school for fear of getting your head pounded in with a hammer, or avoiding Ang Mo Kio area because the gang members there know you or even going to the police station regularly to bail out a friend.

Went to teach a few kids at Pertapis Children's' Home. Its approved by MCYS ministry of community development youth and sports. If i thought John was havoc, this is HAVOC x4! hahaha I teach 4 primary 5 kids math on Mondays and 2 primary 4 kids on Tuesdays. I met a man who gives tuition full time. He's a specialist in primary 6 preparation for PSLE. He believes the Singapore government's education standard is very high and its still going up. That might not necessarily be good. On the top end of the spectrum of students, this is advantageous. At the opposite end, the students are already struggling with work that they are supposed to know 1 or 2 years ago. How is it possible to teach a boy who still counts with his fingers AP, GP? When adults look at PSLE questions and are stumped, its telling of our education direction. It says clearly that things we learn is MUCH TOO ABSTRACT. An adult who does not know how to solve a PSLE question will only show that what kids are learning at 12 has no application whatsoever to adult life.

Me and Kangwen @ 7 Bodmin. One of the jam sessions.

Random Pics Taiwan, Ubin, Dive, Church Camp

At the place we call HOLO Hotel. Cheap ass rates. Cheap ass service.

Donuts at Dunkin Donuts
such a posed picture. from left: ben, ivan lee, ken(me), yunsong, cheng(above), danny(below), john, daquan, ivan lim

Sharing fried chicken at some night market with Ivan Lee

Some cute shopkeepers John and I took pics with. Ivan couldnt get any pics with any cute girls hahahahaha so he decided to take with Jolin Tsai('s cardboard figurine)

Sharapova

Zhangqi is really the man. He gave me 4 tics for Maria Sharapova Live. So a bit of pondering, i gave a pair to Marcus(my cousin). I asked Phoebe along. Marcus asked girl he fancies Chuin Sin. I went right after baptism service at Queenstown Baptist Church. Congrats to CHLOE SNG, SNG HAN JIE, WILLIAM LIM, HENRY LIM, NAHUM CHEW!! After the service, I went off to Bugis, where I was supposed to meet with Phoebe. Dinner was at Ministry Of Food-My Izakaya... Ok truth be told, i'm going on about this like a "today-i-am-such-a-boring-bitch-and-brushed-my-teeth-and-put-on-my-clothes-and-went-to-school" blog so i shall just stop here. Sharapova was great anyway! And the highlight(and malu part) of the whole thing is that Phoebe drove us frm Bugis to Kallang.

Youth

I'm ashamed of my shortcomings. It was there. My chance to prove myself. I let it slip. I gave aunty Rina a chance to be disappointed in me again. Thats the 3rd time? First was the lousy activity that happened week ago. Nick and I were supposed to plan activities. Nothing was done. I suppose I, as the older, more mature one, was supposed to initiate the planning etc. But no. Nothing was done. Next was the monthly activity we are supposed to do. Nothing done by me either. Aunty Rina's just gone straight to asking nick to plan it. Today, there was a chance to lead youth worship next week. I looked away. When did it become like this? I was never one to shy away from a chance to lead, a chance to prove myself. Was it army? The Specialist unspoken rule of dodging trouble whenever we had the chance to. All the self-centeredness the PSLs tried so hard to get rid of in Sec 1 is back. Its sick. What happened to Kelvin Kow's "we're in buckley so we will not pass the buck!"? I know what happened to it. Sadly, its back.

I'm going to start making lists of things to get/do in preparation for leaving Singapore. First up is to get my Visa settled. Then accom. Then buy laundry basket, duffel bag, etc. I shd do this on a piece of paper and pin it up to my wall.

Squashed during watch night service. This is approx 1 min into the new year. I'm being crushed by Nick, Joash, Ruiyang and I think the guy at the back is Nahum.

I'm getting to know the pple in ECC Youth alot better. Its sad to know that in 2 months i'll be leaving. All the more reason to build relationship and friendships right now. Gonna watch I Am Legend with a few of the youths tmr(or rather later today).

The pre-departure blues is really hitting. Chris is right about this. I'm not sure what to do with my remaining time. I do have to work for lunch money. Either way, we'll be back on 28th June so... i guess it wont be that bad. For now, CNY to look forward to!!

The day i decided to revive my web presence

One technological marvel rocks my world right now. It happens to be black(aren't most modern gadgets black?). I don't know why its turning into such an entertainment piece despite my vows months ago that i will not succumb to such temptations. Its a dv2516tx. Hp Pavilion Entertainment PC. I only realised that 2 seconds ago. No wonder its turning into an entertainment machine. IT WAS MEANT TO BE ONE! Gargh. Dad forked out quite a sum for it so i guess i really have to take care of it. Make it last my entire course.

We made a big boo boo. Chris and I. We did. We managed to change our flight so that we'll be leaving singapore on the same flight. Or we thought we did. I told Chris the flight number etc. But we got the date wrong. Everything about our flights is identical! Except the day! What a screw up.

I realise something really sad. I believe I really haven't grown up. I compare myself to the girls who've studied overseas for the last 1.5 years. They do take on a new perspective on life, and the world around them. Studying overseas really broadened their minds. I feel like a little kid. I bet subconciously they treat me as one. Many in ECC won't trust me to be a chaperon for their kid's stayover. I have to be 21 to be legally of age. I will only turn 21 this October. I thought about it and initially i thought its a matter of age. But then again, if they dont trust me now, what difference would 9 months make? They wanted an adult to be there. If I am not an adult now? Then when? Well lets see how it goes during next year's sleepover.

My financial woes are still status quo. Terrible feeding off friends when we go out. I must find my way out of this slum. 2 years of financial independence is really no joke. Its fine when i get my 780SGD NSF pay buttttt after ORD, tsk tsk. It all just went downhill.